Keep being awkward, shy, weird, etc. The right one gon like it and learn how to work with it.
I was doing better.
It’s been a couple months since the last time I felt so alone
But once again,
Slowly but surely,
I started falling back into my old habits.
I got stuck in routine
And I spent all my free time alone in the darkness of my room listening to sad music,
Doing anything to drown out the sadness in my brain.
It came out of nowhere and engulfed me completely
It’s like I couldn’t escape the black ash I was covered in.
It rooted itself into my heart
And everything I did, I felt the heaviness in my chest no matter who I surrounded myself with.
No matter how hard I try I can’t help but let it get to me,
I want to be happy.
I can’t do this anymore.
02/08/18
Welp, back to my old habits. I guess.
